It's almost that time

Can you believe it in less than a month we will celebrate 19 years of marriage? 19 years of sleeping next to you at night. 19 years of knowing I couldn't have gotten a better man to be my partner. 19 years of holding your hand, you know in just the right way. 19 years of you always being there to take care of me in the big ways or the little ways. 6 places we have called home. 5 kids we are raising together . 3 we wish we would have gotten to raise. The dreams we have shared, the ones we have made come true and the ones we had to let go of because life had other things in mind. I love you for all that you are, all that you do and for always being there for all of us. You rock my baby and I love you.

Names, Names, Names, everybodys got one

This was posted to my hubby's page in error. You can now find this at our family page Scoop From MaMee

I am so thankful for you this Thanksgiving.

As I snuggled in bed with you this morning of the eve of Thanksgiving I placed my hand on your chest and felt that comforting beat of your heart. It filled my heart with such comfort just feeling your life force beneath my hand. Then you shifted and my hand fell from your chest and on to your arm. You immediately placed your hand over mine and I cried as you slept holding my hand. I meant even more to me when you said you weren't awake when you did it. I love you honey you mean so much to me and I love just being next to you and feeling your skin on mine. Having you next to me fills my heart to full. I love your touch, your soul, YOU.

Then as I stood in the bathroom, while you were downstairs with the kids I kept creeping back to the first days of our marriage. How scared I was because I loved you so much but you seemed to be pulled away from me emotionally. It broke my heart to feel this big void between us. I was so scared that you didn't really want to be with me. I saw that you loved me but that void scared me and made me think you didn't really want to be there. I was so confused that you chose to be with me but than pushed me away. I know it hurts you when I ask you about it but it also hurts me when I think about it, I feel like I let you down and wasn't enough for you. But then today as I stood thinking of you and how things are now it dawned on me that perhaps the void I felt was your self protection. That you grew up not feeling that close to your family and perhaps you were scared of going there with me. Then I thought about how far you have come in the 20 years and I know how scared you were to come out of that box. I am so glad that you trust me with you. I have loved getting closer to you and learning about you. Thank you for letting me in.

I love this new place we are at. I never would have dreamt we would be here. That we would be able to play, share, and be together the way we are. So this Thanksgiving, I am feeling so thankful for you and that you chose me to get to be with you for the rest of our lives. I love you my honey. Thank you for you being you with me.

I love you so very much.

Roller Boy, I love you.

Honey, I loved watching you skate this weekend. It brought back so many wonderful memories of going to the rink and watching you as skate guard. You were/are such an amazing skater and I was always so proud to say you were mine. The look on your face as you skated around the rink was the same look I use to see 20 years ago. You looked so free and happy. You had that adorable little smile and you could just see how much you were enjoying yourself.

I am so proud of what you have accomplished for yourself in the past few weeks you have been competing in the Biggest Loser Contest at work. I know it's not working as fast as you would like but you are always making progress and that is what matters. I love the dedication and determination you are showing. I am so proud of you honey. You amaze me.

Happy New Year Honey

What a wonderful winter break it was to be able to spend 2 weeks with you and the kids. Thank you for all you did during your vacation for us. It was so nice to get to just be together for a while. I am so blessed to have you and though I don't always do a great job of telling you and showing you I am very grateful for you everyday. I love you Honey.

Thank you

I just wanted to take a few minutes to thank you for all the hard work you have been doing to make our house less chaotic. I loved coming home from the show and having a nice clean room and clean clothes put away. Taking on the garage sale over the weekend with no planning. We didn't make much but our garage sure looks better.

I appreciate you giving me the special day with Liam on Sunday. It was so much fun going to the Children's Museum and watching him get so excited at helping to build the lego dragon. He was so proud to go on the civic tour with your dad. At the end of the show he went running to the pit so he could see them actually playing. Even having him be sort of scared of the end of the show was nice change as he snuggled up to me. I am grateful that you took on the craziness of home so we could go. Thank you, I love you, I adore you, you are my world.

17 years ago and it's still wonderful

Hey Honey

Today is our 17th anniversary and I can't believe it really has been 17 years since we stood looking each other in the eye and said I do. But then again I think of all we have done and accomplished and think wow we did all of that in only 17 years. Through it all you have been my rock, my heart, my soul and my safe place.

I remember the early days of our married life and worrying that when I woke up I would find out it was all dream and you weren't really there with me. I am so glad you have made all of my dreams come true. I couldn't have been blessed by a more wonderful partner. I am always amazed when I hear from others about what their husband does and doesn't do and think of you and how different you are from the majority. I am so lucky to have you and love that you:

Change Diapers
Do Dishes
Do Laundry
Get up at night with the babes
Feed babies
Buy groceries
Buy girly products for me
Take kids with you to the store
Write blogs for me ;0)
Give baths
Clean bathrooms
Bake
Keep your kids not babysit them
and many many many more things that make feel even more blessed that I get to share my life with you.

I am glad that we are still showing them that we can do, as long as we do it together. Thank you for the amazing blog, it is more wonderful to me than you will ever know. I adore you my prince. YOU have made all of my dreams come true and more. You are amazing and I love you.